Gettin' back on the horse!

Someone once told me, failure is a gift. Failure makes us stronger. Failure is the only way we can learn, grow and overcome our weaknesses. I am so grateful for the failures I've done in the past couple months, because without them, the greatest thing in my life, wouldn't exist.

I won't go into detail of when or how or why things happened the way they did, that's not the important part. But recently, I was engaged to an incredible guy. One who has changed my life for the better in more ways than he'll ever know. Unfortunately, Heavenly Father doesn't always give us the answers we want to hear and I sadly had to call the engagement off two weeks before the wedding. I regret the way it happened and the incredibly weak will I had at the time to not do it sooner for both our sakes, but what's done is done and we both survived...barely.

For weeks I was a complete zombie and wondered if I'd ever be able to be happy or feel anything again for that matter. Then I met Blake. We actually had met before I ever started dating my ex-fiance at a bonfire one night. We threw a football around for hours down by the lake with some mutual friends and ended up being facebook friends for a while. Nothing ever transpired though because he had just come out of an intense relationship and I wasn't ready to date just yet. Two years later he randomly messaged me on facebook one night just to see how I was doing. We talked for a while and then ended up hanging out a couple nights. I noticed he took away the sting of the pain temporarily, so I kept asking him to hang out. Selfishly, I used him to fill the gaping hole in my chest that remained from my previous relationship. After months of tense dates and a very awkward kiss on the cheek, I was finally able to feel real happiness. He's been by my side ever since. We've been through hell and back in the beginning stages of our relationship and survived and are now stronger than ever. I know it's not over, but I can now confidently say that no matter what happens, we will make it through and stick with each other through anything.

I look forward to the obstacles and trials that will come our way, because now we are stronger than ever. Bring it on!!