Not much had changed for the last couple of weeks in my pregnancy. I'm still sick as a dog, I can't eat much and I'm exhausted ALL THE TIME!
A couple more things have happened though, I've got a pooch now - the pregnant belly that doesn't look quite pregnant yet, it just looks like a food baby, or a horrible period bloating. No one can tell I'm pregnant, I just look like I've gained some weight. Which is very weird for me being as I've been a health freak since high school. I'm not bummed about it or anything, it's just different. Just something new I'll have to get used to for a couple more months :)
Also, we went to the doctor and saw the baby for the first time. I'm a firm believer that technology is a huge blessing, instead of a curse as some believe. This was one of the reasons why. We could see our little baby perfectly. It's little hands and feet, it's big eyes and rapid heartbeat. No genitalia yet, so nothing on the gender reveal, but we'll find that out at our next appointment. The doctor was able to measure everything to check for signs of down syndrome and other possible diseases. The baby is about 5.5cm long right now. Just a little guy.
The doctor also showed me that my blatter was completely full, which was weird, because I literally just came from the bathroom. Yet another fun pregnancy symptom I've been enjoying haha.
Blake was there the whole time (except when he ditched me when I had to give blood - worst. moment. ever.) It was so incredible getting to experience that with him. He was in the chair next to the table and he immediately reached over to grab my hand and couldn't stop squeezing it. This would be another moment where Blake was overcome by emotion. Once on our wedding day when he saw me in my dress, the day I told him I was pregnant, and the day we saw the baby for the first time on the ultra sound. I almost wanted to stare at Blake instead of the baby the whole time because I just couldn't help falling more and more in love with him.
After seeing the baby, it gave me new perspective on things. I had been praying that my sickness would go away, that I would have more energy, that I would be able to eat normal food again and that I could get through an entire day without hanging over the toilet. My prayers have since changed. I pray for one simple thing, that our baby will be healthy and strong. I no longer care about how I feel or what it's doing to my body. All my worries and complaints were put to rest. I didn't think I could love something so much that I've never even met. I didn't realize how much love could be transmitted through an ultra sound screen. But I love him (or her). I love him more than I've ever loved anything besides Blake. I don't mind throwing up daily, or waking up with a throbbing headache, or not being able to sleep because I have to pee every 5 minutes, or not being able to eat whatever I want. I will go through that and a million other symptoms if it meant that he was healthy.
I am so grateful for this wonderful miracle in my life and I am even more grateful that I've got the best husband in the world to help me through it. PS I came home from a 14 hour day at work to a spotless house and fresh flowers on the dinner table. It doesn't get much cuter than him.
Meet our newest addition for the first time... :)
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